Well here it comes, the most wonderful time of the year..FINALS!
Christmas Break oh Chriastmas Break how I love thee, all I need to di is get through three papers and five exams.
Thats it...
lets hope I make it out alive.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
non-believer
Again,
WHAT THE HELL
another couple lost in the world of love and is getting engaged at such a young age. I just do not understand, and I do not see it..maybe because my heart is made of stone right now, but I mean seriously COME ON PEOPLE.....twenty-one..getting married! Why would anyone do that? Why would one throw their life away like that? To get married is a lot of work..it no longer is about you and it is now a LOT of responsibility that I feel so many young kids just really do not understand...hell I do not understand it all and I am right at their age. I mean seriously why would anyone want to throw their life away like that.
Maybe its because I have been burned by so many assholes that I have been deemed as defective for love, but I seriously do not understand why anyone would want to get married and just end their time of independence and times for traveling...I want to explore the world before I settle down and I hope that someday I will find people who are also int hat frame of mind. I do not want to be married anytime soon in my life. I want to run away from this hell of a town and I want to be free and not tied down. Even all my friends here at school seem to just be sitting around and waiting for that one day to get married..as for me...NO THANK YOU
I do not know why this bothers me so much..but I just find the whole thing about getting married so young quite pathetic..good thing it hasnt happened to any of close friends because it would be hard to stand by and watch them to enter into this. As for me..single life all the way..it is a great time to see how you are as a person and you really get to see the lame people around you in love and make all the mistakes.
antilove..I guess thats what I am
WHAT THE HELL
another couple lost in the world of love and is getting engaged at such a young age. I just do not understand, and I do not see it..maybe because my heart is made of stone right now, but I mean seriously COME ON PEOPLE.....twenty-one..getting married! Why would anyone do that? Why would one throw their life away like that? To get married is a lot of work..it no longer is about you and it is now a LOT of responsibility that I feel so many young kids just really do not understand...hell I do not understand it all and I am right at their age. I mean seriously why would anyone want to throw their life away like that.
Maybe its because I have been burned by so many assholes that I have been deemed as defective for love, but I seriously do not understand why anyone would want to get married and just end their time of independence and times for traveling...I want to explore the world before I settle down and I hope that someday I will find people who are also int hat frame of mind. I do not want to be married anytime soon in my life. I want to run away from this hell of a town and I want to be free and not tied down. Even all my friends here at school seem to just be sitting around and waiting for that one day to get married..as for me...NO THANK YOU
I do not know why this bothers me so much..but I just find the whole thing about getting married so young quite pathetic..good thing it hasnt happened to any of close friends because it would be hard to stand by and watch them to enter into this. As for me..single life all the way..it is a great time to see how you are as a person and you really get to see the lame people around you in love and make all the mistakes.
antilove..I guess thats what I am
Friday, December 4, 2009
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Story of a Girl
This is a story of a girl who is currently lost.
why is it that so many people say that college is the best years?
when I look at my past, and my life right now..college IS not the best time of my life. It has been a journey of much sorrow and many episodes resulting with my crying my eyes out..much like right at this moment.
I am so angry right now. I hate college. I hate this life of shallow people walking by, I am so sick of just being one other person just walking by feeling no purpose. I am lost.
I changed the direction in my life and I feel it was a big mistake. I know I was not ment to be a nurse. But I have no direction anymore. I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. And I am scared out of my mind to be totally honest. I just wish I could fast forward this time to my future life when everything if all put together. I know that many times one should just sit back and enjoy the ride of life. But it is so hard for me. I am no idea what I am supossed to do with my life. I just want God to show me...I want him to show me so bad so I do not have to think about it.
I want to know if I will meet someone who is going to respect me as a woman and not focus only on getting with me physically. I just want to feel comforted and loved. I see everyone all around me with warm glows all over their faces...and here I am alone and crying typing on this blog so I can get all my feelings out.
my blog's name is love, save the empty. well here I am..empty...I need your love God to show me that I matter, I need your love to touch me...because rigth now I feel all alone and I have nothing to hold on right at this moment. I am falling, and I just need to know that you are here God...please....
why is it that so many people say that college is the best years?
when I look at my past, and my life right now..college IS not the best time of my life. It has been a journey of much sorrow and many episodes resulting with my crying my eyes out..much like right at this moment.
I am so angry right now. I hate college. I hate this life of shallow people walking by, I am so sick of just being one other person just walking by feeling no purpose. I am lost.
I changed the direction in my life and I feel it was a big mistake. I know I was not ment to be a nurse. But I have no direction anymore. I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. And I am scared out of my mind to be totally honest. I just wish I could fast forward this time to my future life when everything if all put together. I know that many times one should just sit back and enjoy the ride of life. But it is so hard for me. I am no idea what I am supossed to do with my life. I just want God to show me...I want him to show me so bad so I do not have to think about it.
I want to know if I will meet someone who is going to respect me as a woman and not focus only on getting with me physically. I just want to feel comforted and loved. I see everyone all around me with warm glows all over their faces...and here I am alone and crying typing on this blog so I can get all my feelings out.
my blog's name is love, save the empty. well here I am..empty...I need your love God to show me that I matter, I need your love to touch me...because rigth now I feel all alone and I have nothing to hold on right at this moment. I am falling, and I just need to know that you are here God...please....
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