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Sunday, March 7, 2010
This Is War.
Today is the last week at being at school until I got home for Spring Break. I am so very excited to go home, for many reasons. First being that everyday I am one day closer to getting the heck out of this school. I think everyday that I wake up I die a little inside knowing that I am still at this school. The total almost four years that I have been at this school has been an interesting one. I have gone through much since being at this school and I am really overall thankful for all the growth that it has given me, and really my independence. But again, I have been here for too long. I am ready for a avid change. And I must confess I am nervous when the time comes for me to graduate because of the lack of direction that I currently have, but also along with that it is the time when I am the sole provider for myself. I am going to have to be in charge for car payments, I am going to be in charge for cell phone, I am going to be in charge of finding food, and a place to live! I am freking out. It is going to be a ver very interesting time in my life, that I am so freaked out about, but yet at the same time I am so much looking forward to it. I think that it is going to be a time when I really find my purpose in life. And by purpose I know what my purpose is, it is to have a heart to serve the Lord, and to live a life in mission to further out his kingdom...I know that is what I need to do, I just need to find out the path.
I am currently looking into working at the program called IJM, or UNICEF. Both are amazing programs that are out to look for justice for children who have lost any voice to protect themselves. I feel that it would be an amazing job to help children and to travel to the major disasters that hit 3rd world or even 2nd or first world countries. I feel that it is time of disaster when one can really make a difference and can direct one to the thing that truely onely matters in this world, and that is the Lord.
another thing that is kinf of interesting that I have been doing lately is praying for celebrities. Even the low "trashy" ones that much of Hollywood has deemed as unhelpable. Praying for the celebrities of this world is an important one, because the United States currently puts so much the world of Hollywood on a high tower, and look so much up to them. Me being also a victim of that, I currently look so much up to those actors and musicians that are in the United States. I look up to people like Jared Leto, Jennifer Aniston, Rachael Mc Adams, and the list goes on. But in reality who are these people? We just know these people just by the stories that the papers, and what the interviews tell us. Many of these people are lost and really find no fulfillment in anything that they do. So I am starting a new thing where I am going to pray for these strangers in hope that oneday they will find an answer, that one day they will find the relationship that will save their soul. It is really the only thing you can do. I just read the lyrics at what 30 Seconds to Mars sings, and you can hear the lost in his heart, you can hear that he is trying to find purpose, and he is close..at least it seems like it. And I just pray that one day he will find it. Find the answer.
Sorry this was totally off track, but again this is a stream of what my mind is thinking about right now. (and for the fact that I am listening to 30 seconds to mars) well again, shool is out this Friday, thank the Lord, I am finally able to pack my bags and head back up to Grass Valley, the land of happiness and mommy.
peace and love.
I am currently looking into working at the program called IJM, or UNICEF. Both are amazing programs that are out to look for justice for children who have lost any voice to protect themselves. I feel that it would be an amazing job to help children and to travel to the major disasters that hit 3rd world or even 2nd or first world countries. I feel that it is time of disaster when one can really make a difference and can direct one to the thing that truely onely matters in this world, and that is the Lord.
another thing that is kinf of interesting that I have been doing lately is praying for celebrities. Even the low "trashy" ones that much of Hollywood has deemed as unhelpable. Praying for the celebrities of this world is an important one, because the United States currently puts so much the world of Hollywood on a high tower, and look so much up to them. Me being also a victim of that, I currently look so much up to those actors and musicians that are in the United States. I look up to people like Jared Leto, Jennifer Aniston, Rachael Mc Adams, and the list goes on. But in reality who are these people? We just know these people just by the stories that the papers, and what the interviews tell us. Many of these people are lost and really find no fulfillment in anything that they do. So I am starting a new thing where I am going to pray for these strangers in hope that oneday they will find an answer, that one day they will find the relationship that will save their soul. It is really the only thing you can do. I just read the lyrics at what 30 Seconds to Mars sings, and you can hear the lost in his heart, you can hear that he is trying to find purpose, and he is close..at least it seems like it. And I just pray that one day he will find it. Find the answer.
Sorry this was totally off track, but again this is a stream of what my mind is thinking about right now. (and for the fact that I am listening to 30 seconds to mars) well again, shool is out this Friday, thank the Lord, I am finally able to pack my bags and head back up to Grass Valley, the land of happiness and mommy.
peace and love.
Monday, March 1, 2010
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